Well, I finally kinda understand my friend. I forget that she's an aquarius too, so from her perspective I wouldn't be her best friend and if I was I probably lost that status. So yeah, no bitterness there. But now because of COVID 19 I can't even attend her wedding in October...which is in 2.5 months. Yeah, really short engagement. And she's moving to Northern California. So yeah, even if I go back to California I won't see her or get to be around her. She was already living her life without me for the past 5 years and now she's getting married and will be living her life with her husband and any new friends she makes there. She has always been good at that. But it has made me realize that I'm very codependent even though I feel very independent, I'm actually not. And I got to thinking about what I want to do. I wasn't able to go to South Korea or Japan because I never got my degree to become a teacher. But I never really wanted to do that anyway. And even though Mommy is sick, I know she's not going anywhere. So I decided that by January, I'll go to South Korea for 3 months. That's the max I can stay on a tourist visa. Then in March/April I'll go to Japan for 3 months on a tourist visa. But all the while designing websites and making money. That way I'm not broke and I'm continuously working.
2:11 p.m. - 2020-07-31
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