OMG!!! I have such a crush on this boy in my Drama clsss. I don't know what to do. Somebody help!!!
So anyway, on monday (yesterday). I kept staring at him and looking away...I couldn't help it, I just wanted to look at him and he kept catching me looking at him. So I had to look away.
So anyhow, I couldn't really decide on whether to get to know him right away or not so I just wanted to look at him and watch the things that he did. You get to know people by just watching them. But I was really bold and I'm never like that.
So anyway, I was fine until after the meeting and then we all gathered at the dock and was chattin it up. I couldn't help bothering him though, he's just so cute (and I don't just mean physical appearance, I mean his personality, or the little of it that I've seen). So we end up going to Raley's and getting some sweet stuff and food, by the time we get back to the college, it's nearly time for rehearsal. We chat a little and then the instructor comes and we go in the theater. However, he has to go on stage and I get bored 'cause I have no one to talk to. So I go backstage and he's stage right so I was gonna hang out when he leaves then comes back and he ask me to hang out with him on the dock 'cause no one else was out there. So I go and we chat on the stairs for a while. Then the rehearsal break comes and I have to leave, so I'm like - see ya' - and he hugs me. I'm too shocked because you don't just hug people you met a week or two ago and I miss my opportunity to give him a kiss on the cheek 'sigh'. So anyway, I didn't mind the hug even though I don't like to be touched. And I don't want to assume that he meant more than for it to be a 'see ya later' hug and not a 'I want to get to know you better' hug.
I have no clue why I'm thinking so hard about all of this since I don't normally think this way. If a guy hugs me then I'm usually like 'cool, whatever'. But with him, I'm not sure of anything so, I'm willing to just be friends (not like I got a choice). But it's cool either way. I just want to touch him anyway nothing more than that!! Well...maybe a kiss here and there, now and again. :P
3:17 p.m. - 2005-09-27
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